Rockstar Mayhem Festival

Since even though this is an internet board were all pretty much family, let me put this out there, @MissHeretic weve all been through a state of great deppression at some point or another. Im going through it now. I had an abusive downright bitch of a gf up until january that literally went to a party with me and was sending texts to a friend of mine at the time offering to suck him off etc. RIGHT in front of me. I couldnt leave or anything because we lived together and I had no other living options. Granted she was bipolar but I finally left because we were broken up for a week and I started to flirt with a mutual friend because I was single...well she found out and i got the shit kicked out of me. Shes a girl so I obviously wasnt going to touch her. As a result of my brain being fucked with the near 7 months I was with her, I can get really defensive and have such a hard time trusting women that me and my mom dont even get along. I was sleeping in my truck in the local walmart parking lot for over a week with a friend just because my mom and I fought too much and it was making me suicidal. not to mention I freaked out on my stepdad and it made my mom get a restraining order. I finally agreed to go talk to a shrink for depression and suicidal thoughts, and turns out my mind is fucked due to that ex and my neglectful REAL father. So I guess what im trying to say is no matter who you are or what your going through your never alone. Thankfully i'm back with my mom now and we are slowly building in her words "the best relationship weve had". If you ever need to talk, I can shoot you my cell number if you want or email..... I watched my stepmother who was truthfully my best friend commit suicide, not to mention a friend of mine from high school took his life a few months ago, and it took a toll on me because i'm only 19. This goes for anyone on here thats ever depressed, I know we are all here for eachother...... THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME VENT

@MissHeretic I just caught the you finding the hair thing..... I'm 19 like you and haave been balding since age 14 FUCKING 14 due to stress..... I barely got any hair left :( bald ass metal head it hurts to headbang :(

@metalgod yea dude my mom and i dont really get along either but she does do a lot of nice things for me behind my back. we just get in a ton of arguments. And that sucks ass about your ex. i felt the same way about a party i went to with her. nobody is alone, especially in our Mayhem family. we all share so much in common its amazing. Along with metalgod im up for giving my cell to anyone just to talk to on a daily basis. would be real cool

i need more people to talk to on a daliy basis

I can't text anyone but here's my email lashton9932@gmail.com @metalgod I went through almost the exact same thing with my ex. It's kind of freaky actually. But itwas with the three of my best friends. He lived with me. He only hit me once but he used to choke me alot. Me and my mom fight alot too. I've just been depressed for like years now and on top of that I have anxiety. I'm constantly stressed out about something. I've just been through alot and I don't handle it well like most people do. And thanks for talking with me everyone. If anyone of you need anything and want to talk email me.

Oh and people don't make me regret putting my email up there. Lmao.

i have a twitter, youtube, cell phone, and skype if anyone wants it haha

i dont really use email to chat actually :/ but what @Miss said dont make me regret it lol. im open for anyone though

I have a twitter but I'm barely on it. But it's LeahSadistic666. I think. Haha.

i couldnt find you :/ mine is @kennyrocks94